Thursday, June 24, 2010

Self-doubt

I want so badly for Keeghan's story to be written. Maybe while he was alive and I was writing all the time I let other people's comments about what a good writer I am go to my head. But I read the writing of other parents who have been through similar experiences and I think, "Wow . . . she writes so much better. How can I possibly think that I can do Keeghan justice?" His life and his story deserve the very best storyteller, and I guess today I'm having doubts about whether or not that is me. I miss him so much, and want him to come alive through my words, but I don't know if I'm good enough to do it.

I'm having a serious self doubt day. Can you tell?

Also, the two little girls that I spoke about in yesterday's post? Well, one of them died yesterday. The other died today.

So much sadness in this world. I only hope that all of these fabulous children are having a good time where they are now.

4 comments:

  1. Hi Shannon,
    I can only speak for myself, but I do think you're a talented writer. And even if there are better, more talented writers out there, your way of telling Keeghan's story was always so powerful, so true and so moving, I think you're not only the right person, but also the ONLY person to write Keeghan's story! I have sadly never met Keeghan, but he was as present in my life as if I had. You brought this wonderful young man close to so many people and I am very sure I wasn't the only person who cried like a baby when he died.
    I would want to read the book if you put it in print and I think it would be an inspiration and an encouragement for many.

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  2. I agree with what Inga said. Your way of narrating Keeghan's journey was (is) very powerful. I will definitely buy your book if you get it to print.

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  3. Shannon, I don't know if you ever check this site and you don't know me but I felt I needed to send you a message. I followed your family's journey. Your goal of keeping Keeghan's story alive is still attainable and I wish you would persue it. The reason this came to mind is because I was just fortunate enough to visit Giant's Causeway in Northern Ireland. The whole time I was there, I thought of Keeghan and how much he loved the trip. His story remains with those of us who remember, even though we have never met. I hope you will give others the opportunity to hear his story also.
    Karen

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  4. Wow Karen . . . it's funny that you posted this message today. I was just thinking this morning about how much I miss writing, and how I really want to start a book about Keeghan. Not just about Keeghan though; about all of us, how we were when our family was whole and how Mike, Maxx and I are now without Keeghan. How his life still adds so much joy to ours, and how his death has enabled me to be of support to other moms in similar situations.

    So yeah . . . there will be more writing about Keeghan. I have to get through the next two months of getting moved to Japan, but then there will be a lot of writing I think. Thank you though for the virtual kick in the pants here - I needed it!

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